It’s been eighteen months since Dad died. Some months the 8th passes by just being another day. Sometimes the milestone brings another wave of grief.
Yesterday brought a new milestone of grief. It was the first time someone visited our blog by searching for “Joe Lemsky cause of death.” It sent shivers down my spine. When I removed the veil of secrecy last month regarding the circumstances of dad’s death, I anticipated someone would google about it and I would provide fodder for gossip. I knew that would happen. I just wasn’t prepared for how I would feel.
Today I’m reminding myself again that I am not defined by this. My identity does not lay in this one event. I am not a suicide survivor. I am not left behind.
I am beautiful and enough. I am worth it. I am a daughter of God. The King. That makes me a princess! My identity does not lay in the grips of Satan’s lies, but in the King who gives me a hope and a future.