One year ago I lost my dad. It was sudden and completely unexpected. It hurt. It broke my heart.
This past year has been awful and it’s been amazing. I miss my dad dearly and am tempted to ask “why.” But God has reminded me often not to seek the why but seek the who. The Psalms talk of the refuge in the shadow of God’s wings. Do you know how close you need to be to stand in someone’s shadow? Close. God has drawn me close to him. I feel the protection, the comfort, the refuge under the shadow of His wings. I have found the Who.
O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you;
my flesh faints for you,
as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
2 So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary,
beholding your power and glory.
3 Because your steadfast love is better than life,
my lips will praise you.
4 So I will bless you as long as I live;
in your name I will lift up my hands.
5 My soul will be satisfied as with fat and rich food,
and my mouth will praise you with joyful lips,
6 when I remember you upon my bed,
and meditate on you in the watches of the night;
7 for you have been my help,
and in the shadow of your wings I will sing for joy.
8 My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me.
9 But those who seek to destroy my life
shall go down into the depths of the earth;
10 they shall be given over to the power of the sword;
they shall be a portion for jackals.
11 But the king shall rejoice in God;
all who swear by him shall exult,
for the mouths of liars will be stopped.